The Land Between Insomia and Exhaustion...

It's a quarter past 3:00am. I should have been asleep hours ago. Instead, I lie in bed with my iPhone in hand and my eyes wide awake. My body is still flowing with several large cups of iced tea, whose caffeine—which normally doesn't affect me—is preventing me from finding my place of slumber.

I'm too alert to fall asleep, yet too sleepy to do much else. Yes, I'm in the awkward land halfway between the hills of insomnia and the valleys of exhaustion. I'm surprised that I've even got enough brain synapses firing correctly to write this blog. Something tells me that I won't be asleep for the next hour. If I shut off my iPhone, I'll just toss and turn and that's no good.

Of course, it doesn't help that my mind is pre-occupied with thoughts of work and money. It wonders how God is going to solve the current predicament, since the obvious path led to a dead end. The trust is still there, but there is still anxiousness for the problem to be resolved quickly.

I guess the real frustration is the disconnect between what I know I can/should be doing and what doors have been opened this far. My hopes and dreams are locked in with the long-term goal that hasn't materialized yet, but I'm faced with a short-term puzzle that requires a short-term solution... And time is slowly running out.


Blogged from my iPhone 3G.