Is That All You Got?

Something interesting happens when you've been to hell and back. Life challenges don't impact you as much. When you rise above what beat you down, nothing looks big. You've overcome what broke your body and your spirit and you've healed into a stronger person. You look back on your circumstances and you see how God was there—even in the times you doubted and cried out at night—and suddenly nothing can scare you.

As I mentioned previously, I am currently on a six week web development assignment. This is week four. I found out today that the funding for my position was cut with the end of their fiscal year. Worst case scenario is that tomorrow will be my last day here. It's two weeks earlier than expected.

I'll be honest and say that I'm not at all worried. My first thought wasn't "I'm just climbing out of this mess and I need this job to continue!", but rather, "God's seen me through worse and he will see me through this. Where's the next opportunity?" It's basically one of those Christian platitudes that you repeat throughout life because it's just what you say, but you don't fully appreciate it until you've had your life obliterated and restored, seeing God's hand through it all. Maybe it's just because I'm in this euphoric stage where I'm still counting every blessing that God has bestowed lately. Regardless, this challenge isn't causing me to worry and I'm left asking "life" if that's all it's got.

I actually have a couple of options right now. First, my supervisor doesn't want to let me go. He's trying to find another department to move me into where I can stay with the company. My interview for that position is tomorrow afternoon and I seem to be fitting the job description to the letter. I'd be using my previous webinar experience, plus getting back into my radio hosting background. I'm almost a shoe-in for the position. Just in case that falls through, I got on the horn with my creative staffing agency that placed me here and let them know about the situation. There might be a front-end development position at a major studio for several dollars more per hour. Again, my skill set and their job description match, so it's definitely a possibility. Regardless of which door God opens, I'll be content. And even if nothing is open, I'm sure my agency will find me more work within a couple of weeks.

So, tomorrow will be the day of truth. I will either keep working for this company under a different role, or my contract will end and I find out what else is in store for me. Obviously, I'd like to go back to my office and move forward with my development projects, but first I have to finish getting my life back on track financially. There's still cleanup work to do.

Update: I never said what happened. I interviewed for the position and I matched the job description, but they didn't want a contract person who was just there for a day job. As I was leaving, I got a call about producing a music video and everything seemed on track for that until I found out that the band didn't have anywhere near the amount of money to pull off the concept they wanted. So, patiently waiting for God to provide.