The Difficult Decisions...

Some decisions are relatively easy. They can still be big decisions, but you know that they are the right ones to make. God confirms them and blesses you as you step onto that path and walk the journey he has placed in front of you.

Moving to Los Angeles—that was a big, but easy decision. I knew that the timing was right and God helped put all of the pieces together. The decision was then confirmed after I moved when the creative floodgates opened wide—my development slate went from two or three projects to seventeen! As I looked back, I also realized that I had no awkward just-moved-to-new-city transition. I came here with life already in place.

And while some decisions are easy, others can be substantially harder. You may still know that they are the right choices and turning points in life, but you might not be positive that you are at that point yet or something might be holding you back—likely finances. My jump from the 9-5 workplace to freelance last year was like this. It was scary and the first few months were difficult, but it was the right choice that I had to make to move ahead in my journey.

Right now, I'm standing on the edge of an amazing precipice. Every time I pitch my concepts to someone, they are interested in hearing more. People think that I have some great ideas and, sooner or later, I'll get a chance to pitch them to people with power and money and I will finally have broken through the wall and be a full-fledged working producer. And yet, something is holding me back: work. The same freelance work that feeds me, puts gas in my car, and enabled me to move to Los Angeles is now keeping me so busy, that I am unable to do the legwork on my projects that I need in order to secure those important meetings with the powerful people. Bibles need to be written, outlines need to be finalized, characters need to be fleshed out. And I can't do that when I'm coding websites or sitting in a client's office (no matter how much that position may be part of God's plan).

What I really need to do is cut out my freelance website work and focus on my producing. I need to get an office and begin hyper-focusing on what is most important. What's holding me back is that my web clients are paying my bills—and I have a lot of them! Even without rent, there are phone bills, car bills, insurance bills, credit card bills... and I rely on every single dollar every single month that flows through those internet-powered pipelines. I can't afford to stop working freelance, yet I must. In order to move forward, I have to do it. And that's what makes this a very, very difficult decision.